"I told her right after separation that i wanted to make her happy. she said i could that i have tried for 13 years and that if she ever loved me it dosnt just die."
Love takes work. And after 2 A's, it takes more work than if there wasn't an A. After the A, it was your responsibility to do the work. To build your W back up. You didn't but at least you're trying to learn.
Stop the jealousy, the anger and start showing her respect. Respect is a big difference from kissing @$$.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.