Uh, YOU are not the one broken or lost here. You are the one with healthy sexuality looking for constructive solutions to the sex problem in your R. It should be VERY obvious to you given his history with other women that this is HIS problem. And, given he's restarted the porn, withdrawn from you, and cheated heavily in the past.... I wouldn't go near his semen with a 10' pole. Please practice NOTHING but safe sex.
