Fix me, fix my life, win back my wife

[ScaredinCanada]

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

So my W called me earlier…but I didn’t answer so I just called her back about an hour later and she wanted me to stop and pick up some groceries on my way home – no problem.

Then she says “Oh ya, I’m not sure if you remember but that little girl that I was supposed to babysit – that didn’t work out? They just called and said they now need me again – 4 days a week (full-time essentially), but I know that will be really difficult come the summer because our girls will be home as well – so I told them I’d have to think about it”

So I said, “You don’t want to stretch yourself to thin…”

To which she says, “Except that I’ll probably REALLY need the money by then…”

I’m like uh…”What does that mean”….and she just doesn’t say anything.

WTF?? So she’s planning for me to BE GONE?!??! Why else would she “really need the money”…and again she’s talking about watching this girl in OUR house…so it doesn’t really add up.”

So many facking mixed signals and direct statements that may or may not mean what I think they mean…what the heck is she thinking in her head?!?!?

Otherwise the conversation was “normal”…like any other day…

I bother's me so much that she has these plans in her head.

Just venting, still focusing on detaching - as I'm obviously struggling with it.