Moving Forward

[gutwrenching]

I am exhausted and I am looking for a good family therapist with experience in infedility.

They are still emailing back and forth. Reflecting on all this, I suspect W just wants to make through Xmas and try to build up courage for D. I also think that once again she might have to hit rock bottom to actually make a decision. A tough love approach is probably the only thing that might get her to that point. Waiting around and fillind her security need, while OM fills all other needs, and none of my needs are being met just doesn't work for me. I've lived that...I lived that from Nov - Jul.

Limbo land sucks. It drains you. I lived in limbo for a long time before. Now back in limbo for 3 more weeks. Its not healthy for me. I don't want to become damaged goods.