CL, You are so right. I thank you from my heart for your strong words of reality. I was soooo frustrated when I wrote some of my posts. Your comment about boycoting the erands was right on. And you are right. It isn't moving fast enough for me. However, I am continuing my Co-Denendent 12 step program and just last night the topic was acceptance. Boy was that good timing. I am working on facing my fears of all kinds. As a matter of fact, one of them has been my insecurity in the kitchen and cooking. Never been good at it. So what I started on Sunday is a weekly "I get in the kitchen a do a gourmet meal". It actually was great and H was really pleased and gave me a kiss. May not sound like a lot, but haven't had one in eons. I am just figuring out how to find the comments people write to me so it has taken me a while to get back to you. Again thank you for your support and reality.
