Starting on a different path

[Mystik]

NM, I just keep praying that next year is different, and hopefully H has woken from his fog by then. DS is doing better, I think. His cough is horrendous today and he is complaining of nausea. Not sure if it's from post-nasal drip or the stomach bug lingering.

Yes, OW has another child. But when I think of our family it's just me, H and DS. No other child because I have no other child. It is the OW's child, not mine, so therefore not part of my family. I can't deal with it being part of my family right now. When H returns I'll figure it out then.

I know that if I file for D my H will be jumping for joy. It's the filing for out of pocket support, change to visitation and to have the daycare taken from his paycheck that I fear will impact chances of reconciliation.