Moving Forward

[gutwrenching]

Ok - no talks tonight. Why...I am too tired, physically, mentally, emotionally. I am exhausted and was afraid if I said anything it would be reacting off of emotions/feelings and not have gone off well. So I wait. So it'll be at least 24 hours and i will re-evaluate tomorrow.

SANDI - hoping for some thoughts from you. I've got Puppy and Greek giving me advice...like you, they have been with me a long time.

Tonight she started off as a royal bi&*% but then snapped out of that. Said she had a long, tough day at work (she did, I confirmed with others and she told OM in email she had no time to write him back but that OM he "was the one, the plan, I never imagine being with anyone else. I just want to go back"

Then she snapped out of that mood and was more of her new normal and told me she just felt off all day. She asked casually if I had time to call any Cs today (which I didn't) so I said no and that is all that was said. My gut is telling me the C is her way of proving to me that our M will never work...