she sent me an email. "Hope you have a happy birthday." for some reason that destroyed me. how can i have a happy birthday when my life is falling apart? i don't understand anything that is happening to me and i can't figure out what is going through her head. last year for my birthday she gave me a card that was a list of all the things she loved about me. maybe she was trying to convince herself but somehow between then and now everything good that ever happened in our marriage disappeared and everything she ever regretted got magnified. i'm so tore up right now. i was having a good day until i got that email. i am so lost and lonely but know that i can't reach out to the one person that i need right now.
i replied "thank you"
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