I literally do not know how to stop calling and texting him. I start off the day fully committed to not contacting him and then something will happen and I get weak and text him something. Today he made me furious with a text so I went and called him. So stupid and now I regret it. But it is really great advice and so I'm going to try extra hard!
In terms of what attracted him to me in the first place, it was over 10 years ago so its a little hard to remember. We were introduced at a country concert. We did have a lot in common, same values and a lot of the same dreams. How do I show him anything attractive about myself though when we aren't living together and if I'm trying not to talk to him? This is so hard. And I've got all of these responsibilities now. Back then I was carefree and I could actually take time to look nice before I saw him! You would think missing being home with his children at night would be enough wouldn't you!?!
My son is having a hard time. He's almost 3, so starting to be more aware. He asks for daddy a lot which just totally breaks my heart. My daughter is so young and very attached to me so I don't notice anything from her, but he proably will. His parents blow my mind! They are super religious so you'd think they'd have a major problem with this...but NO!!! I honestly never felt like they accepted me or liked me so maybe they really do think he's better off. I don't know.
I'm going to work on finding myself. I have absolutely no clue how, but I'm going to try. Extra hard right now with Christmas coming up. I'm really going to miss him then.