Why do I even bother?

[Phenix70]

Thanks FaithN AK, I've already read DB & DR, doing my 180 & following Sandi's list to the T.
In fact, I think I've gotten pretty good at doing all things I'm supposed to be doing & my own GAL is going very well.
I'm becoming more accepting that my H & I are not going to R, it's sinking in now & I'm making peace with that.
It's going to be hard, I know I'll miss him like crazy, more than I've ever missed anyone else, but at the end of the day I have to be realistic, HE IS NOT COMING BACK TO ME.
(The caps were for me, I'm not yelling at anyone, LOL.)