I am so sorry this is so tough, so intense for you. Like I said, I did not want to live when I first came here. And if you can stand it, I am still 'friends' with this guy, but I have the upper hand. He is not the man I was involved with.
This board, Michele personally, and her works not only saved 'me'; SHE and her works taught me skills that saved my romantic relationship (I'll give you details if you are interested); my relationship with my children; and work and work relationships. I am almost 10 years strong. You can't get more pathetic than I WAS--and I was a s l o w learner. But I built my skills, and I KNOW you can too, because you are a good person.
You are special, Mystik, and you can do this. I just feel you can come through this really strong. And I so know it's hard.
A few years ago, my D23(now) had been through some similar programs. She was hospitalized, the went through some outpatient programs. She's doing really well now. It is a slow road, but give yourself some time.
peace and ALL good, sg
sg Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, LOVE never fails / DB since 2001
