"The M you have reached has been disconnected...."

[faithisbelieving]

The time is approaching. My time in my house is now coming to an end. Boxes everywhere.

I remember the first night waking up in our new house with ex next to me. I remember opening my eyes and looking out the windows and seeing: blue skies and GREEN. The tops of the pine trees were so green. I could reach out and touch them. The sky was SO blue. It is burnt into my mind.

I was at peace and in love. That is ended now.

I can't believe how much stuff accumulates over time. I'm tossing as much as I can. Today, I came a cross a DVD that I burned for X. On the outside: "Neil Diamond, for my wife". I tossed the CD into the last box of her possessions that I will leave in her backyard. It's hers for her to dispose of.

Like most here have predicted, I have been fortunate to have more time with my kids. This weekend was hers and I had them for the day yesterday while she worked and for 2 hours this morning while she did a wedding. The extra time makes life more livable.

My closing is on the 16th and the movers are coming on the 14th. Sadly, I may end up having to write a check to make up the difference for a shortfall. X walks away with about 40-$50K. Such is life.

And so, I guess, a conclusion of sorts finally arrives. It's been 3 years since I filed for divorce. X wife ran out of gas today for the second time. She walked over to the house and left the kids while she walked back to her car. Yeah...I gave her a gas can. I won't need it now (no lawn to cut). Where is Cadillac Man??

Strength and honor.
FIB