Thanks , BM! Actually HE was the one who made the decision to buy this house. I was hesitant, knowing it was the limit of our capabilities. He rationalized by saying we loved to entertain, etc. It was not out of character for him, he is the one who always had a higher bar when it came to quaity of life, believing always in "you get what you pay for",I was more simple (discount shopper type, although still love fashion.
I know, I should not have defended myself, I knew it was the MLC speaking but could not stop.Thanks for the 2x4, I used it on myself, flogged my stupid brain for responding - that after giving Pickle a long lecture! As they say, easier said than done.
I am not good at setting boundaries, as I am somewhat a free spirit myself - so I will just steel myself to walk away from situations like that.
I spent the whole day controlling myself - walking in the rain, crying helplessly. After a few hours I got myself under control, managed to finish decorating. To think I was so happy that he bought a tree last Friday!
The day ended better.... he asked if I anted to work out, I went with him, the endorphins started to work and he started to smile and even this AM, when he woke up, he started to talk and smile again at me.
I will try to keep the mood light today. Steer clear of any R, M, or money talks! Or else I think I might be the one to wave the white flag.
Me:49 H:45 D:12 M:14 T:18 Bomb: 6/26/10 EA: 9/3/10, fizzled out slowly, now ??? 11/5/11 Retrouvaille Finally piecing.... Its peaceful at last, but we got a looong way to go