Moving to the next phase of what?

[cagzmom]

peace- scary journey for sure! My evenning was amazing - he is a wonderful guy.. wounded with things that he needs to go through.

through this - the divorce- the hurt i have met myself again. going through so much of the pain that was built in my past... so much. and now i have become free.

then in walks new guy. we are not exclusive-- he is not ready and to be honest it has been too soon. he has to work through his divorce- and to be honest it is not pretty.

but what it has unraveled is some of the old me popping out and i do NOT like who she was. it was the needy clingy girl who wants him in her life. but he is a strong man -- the kinda i want long term (not just him but a man like him) and strong men do NOT like needy women.

my x is now broke up wiht move in #2 (which is gf #kazillion). she is still living there.. long story. ANYWAY I look at him and see the same man who walked out on me, broke my heart -- he has not grown or changed. HE is the same. AND I DONT WANT to be hte same girl that attracts needed men anymore.

So... a new journey is beginning for me.. the non-codependent woman. This journey is a new one... for the strong independent person I am and was all along.