Hit by truck 2 months ago

[habitacker]

It is amazing to me how my waw can go day after day like nothing is wrong. If I don't bring anything up about the R, it will not be mentioned at all. Which I have not for about a month now. It is just weird that such an important thing is happening in our lives and it is like she is just ignoring it. Or doesn't want to deal with it.
Our daily life is just like it used to be. The only thing different is "no sex". That is really the only thing that is different, other than my attitude. Which is 99% of my 180.
I want to think that this normal daily life is a good sign,but I have the feeling like she is DONE. This friendly normal life attitude is just a way to pass the time because she feels she needs to give me time to get established before I am out. If she is done like she says, is this the way you would think she would act? Like nothing is wrong? Wouldn't it be easier to turn on me? Treat me bad or something? She has never treated anyone bad in her life. This is what scares me because I don't know how to read her.
Is she done with me and just being nice because that is the way she is? or, are things getting better and she is opening up to me more? Frustrating!
Another thing is sex. Yea, I know, I am a guy so I have to bring this up. Why does it seem women can do without so easily? I don't know what to think. She has never been the initiating type. How do I know that she doesn't want me to try something? I will never do this because I do not want to backslide. But, how do I know?
One of the things that made me question sex, is that we have had nothing physical for more than 3 months, but she has never got off the pill. About a month ago I asked why, and she said she never thought about it, and it is just habit and it helps with womens things(cramps,etc.). Any women out there that can justify this let me know because I don't know much about that. I am 99.9% sure there is no affair. If she isn't at work she is home, and on her time off she usually has the kids, and if she goes shopping or something, she always comes back with what she went after in a reasonable amount of time. Plus, it is just not something she would do. I am a very lucky man who took advantage of a beautiful human being. I forgot what I had. I will never let that happen again.