Busy day today. I spent the morning and afternoon with my Dad who started on medication for his hernia and it made him sicker than before! Doctor told him to discontinue it. I brought him some probiotics (the hard core suckers!) and B complex vitamin for stress. I also brought him a Qigong DVD on exercises promote digestion. Whatever helps I guess. At one point he was talking about his situation and how wonderful mom has been and then began crying, he feels as though he's holding her back. I said "Dad, if the roles were reversed wouldn't you do exactly the same thing for her?" He then said "she's such a wonderful woman...but why does she have to watch the 24 hour news station all the time!" I said "maybe when you do your morning prayers you should ask God to do something about the 24 hour news station" Anyway, we had a nice visit. I'm glad my Dad feels he can cry around me, he needs to sometimes. Afterwards I drove home, lay down for 15 minutes and then changed to meet my friend and her kids at her church for their 30th anniversary dinner and service. I went to her church for a few months about a year ago but stopped for a reason I won't go into, so I know a lot of people there. It was really nice to step through the doors and be met with hugs and people calling my name. It's times like this when it hits me that I really do make an impression on others. I think when you've been crushed by one of the most important people in your life (read: wife) you tend to feel inside as though you're not that significant. Well, I certainly felt significant tonight. My friend phoned me to say she would be late so I kind of became the official greeter at the door! It's kind of funny because I don't even go there any more. I'm also having a bit of a spiritual crisis and am checking out different churches, ones with a more liberal perspective. I've been going to an evangelical church for a few years, periodically I check out others, but I'm really starting to have theological differences with the evangelical belief system. I used to just put these things aside but the last few months I've been finding myself saying "I just don't believe that". I was raised in a liberal church and certainly not a place where you needed to be "born again" etc. I'm not someone who can just sit and pretend I believe stuff I just don't! So, I'm checking out liberal churches that may allow me a little more room to question and refine my beliefs. We'll see how it goes. So, that's my update for tonight. Gotta go, the 24 hour news channel is on.
