when was script is not script

[Jstar]

Well it does feel somewhat better that someone else is as dedicated to their children as you are. I wonder what your wife thinks it's going to be like if you were divorced.

i have no complaint with or about my children, i love them so much and i appreciate them each and every day,. that is something i do not think my h realizes.

here's an example, he had teh whole day off today and he chose to do other stuff then be with his kids. he was invited to go with us to the zoo. he showed up for about an hour and left. left with d3 in tears so sad and upset he left. it's like something is always so much more important then them, i can not stand it.
while we just me and the kids were walking around the zoo, it was odd. since i have been with h i have been living out of the way i grew up, as in social and economic, instead of him lifting himself up i allowed myself to be drug down to something lower.

i have not socialized with people of my own economic upbrining and family values for a very long time. it felt wierd. there were nothing around us but families, real families that enjoy each others companies just looking at animals. kids throwing real fits with parenting going on.

what i have seen and been around for a some time has been the walk away fathers in prison, girls having more kids to ensure they still qualify for state assistance.

i love my h, i'm attracted to him, but our values are so different, i wouldnt even know where to begin to come to some common ground if the situation was broached. in the long run is it best for my children to know they have their father but eventually iwill meet someone and be in a relationship who needs to be in mine and my kids lives and does not view them as anything less then what they were intended.

i know that my h will drop out of the picture entirely in a matter of 1-3 years.
be back in few