Starting on a different path

[Mystik]

Just feeling rather down these past few days. Really missing H and ruminating on what could have, what should have, been. I know that I just need to be patient and wait out the affair to blow up in H's face, but it's darn hard to do at times. I hate not knowing what is going to happen when. I know that I need to trust God and in his timing, that He has it all under control. I'm not a patient person, I have the rest of my life though to learn some and wait this thing out.