Hi everyone. I spoke to a very good friend and he indicated that I should post. I have been a little hesitant because I have not wanted to jinxewhat has been going on in my life. But I know that with ALL of the support and kinds words, thoughts, and feeling that have been passed on to me, I MUST pay it forward.

I will most likely begin a thread in piercing soon to begin to understand the feeling I have in my head about moving forward with my H.

We are talking EVERYDAY about a lot of things. I took the advice of all of you, especially you Lance: I have followed my H's lead. I gave him time, I gave him peace, I gave him something to miss and value. While doing this (even though I questioned myself most days), I got to know ME. And let me tell you, that journey will continue. smile

Right now, we are in a good place. We still have words to speak, miles to experience and a lifetime to think about. We are taking it one step at a time. I listened to a song that has become a theme song of my life over this last year. It talks about why we go through what we go through and regardless of the outsome, we are loved. If eel happy about me (not what is going with my H) and I value the chance we have as a couple.

He speaks about "our future" - this sounded so foreign to me initially since he was so adamant about the D word. I am keeping expectations low. But his words are backed by actions. I still "have miles to go before I sleep......"

Everyone, please have a good night.....

(((HUGS))) Destiny

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Me 44
H 51
T 15 yrs
M 9+ yrs
No Kids
"You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."