Working on acceptance and forgiveness

[glamgirl]

And yet just a few days ago, he emailed me to say he wanted me to "promise him I wouldn't get in a relationship for 'revenge or compensation' but only out of true affection." Like he doesn't want ME to physically be with anyone, but he can do it all he wants, because of course, he is "in love."

Hence the confusion in MLC. Your h really doesn't know what he wants. He is in a fog and can't see clearly right now.

I do think that the intimacy did keep h and I close. Afterall, he did come over 5-7 days a week to see the kids and me and many of those days were filled with intimacy. I guess in my case my h had no loyalty to ow sexually. So when he finally did return there was not that awkwardness of having sex after years of not being together, just the weirdness of having someone sleep next to me again.

Again, I just followed my heart. I could have just been cold and bitter to my h. I just tried treating him like a good friend even though my kindness for the most part was NOT recipricated. IE, living with ow, not returning phone calls, not showing up when promised, etc etc. I just focused on what I could control and did the best I could with GALing and tried not to think what my h was doing and why.

It's not easy to decide what to do, how to respond, so it was easier for me to just go with the flow and show my h love and kindness. I did much praying and asking God for guidance and my heart was telling me to kind and friendly and lots of lip biting.