when was script is not script

[ScaredinCanada]

The only thing I ever feel good about is that I'm not alone. There are lots of people going through a similar sitch (which helps me cope). I also can't deny that the fact that we still live in the same house and have maintained the same shared responsibilities has made me feel optimistic.

I don't have any money to spend on myself - everything goes into house, car, kids, and bills. I've been trying to save some money so I can buy some new clothes in the New Year which will give me some more confidence and maybe just another way to show the W that I'm changing.

The gym has been a huge life-saver for me. I'm lucky I got at lunch while I'm at work, and because it's at a friends place it's free. I try to go 3-4 times a week, and it's paying off because it gets my mind of things, and I've lost 13 pounds since April so again it's helping with my self-confidence. That's another reason why I need new clothes, because most don't fit very well anymore.

I feel like every chance my W gets to make a dig at me she goes for it.

Big difference in our sitch's, as my W would never walk from her kids, but at the same time neither will I. I have re-dedicated myself to them and it's so rewarding.

Your work schedule is the exact same as mine. I feel like all I do is get up at 5, goto work all day and then come home help or make dinner, clean up, get the kids ready for bed, make lunches and goto bed. It's a tough and tiring life, I'm wondering how my W things that leaving or pushing me away is somehow going to be a big improvement. At least in your case it sounds like it's only a matter of time and your H will comeback because he needs you - and hopefully his kids.

Good luck, I'm sure you can do it. I'll be reading along, and will offer support or help if I can.