Hey Antonia, I know it gets lonely. My H and I have been intimate only 3 times since the bomb, and every time he pulled back and runs away even further. Maybe he felt like he was betraying OW. Don't know. These guys are really twisted when it comes to justifying their actions.
Going cold turkey is harsh though. One thing that has helped me when I just craved being held was to go get a massage. Nothing trashy, just regular kind. It helped. Not with all my needs, but it did help.
