Andylee, Thank you for sharing. Sounds very similar. I really believe their is an OW. Or I grasp for some reasoning why you just walk away from your wife and two small ones.
I too "let myself" go in the whole baby/mommyhood. I think that may be our problem. Can you remember what your H liked about you when you first met what drew you two together? that is what I have been focusing on and trying to remember. I am trying to find myself and I hope you will to. Its hard with 2 in diapers and needing every moment of our time. Do they act any differently? Mine are just more clingy then usual.
What do his parents say? My MIL is fine with the whole thing because she has someone to take care of. My FIL passed away last year and she has been lost.
I did something "crazy" today I didnt answer H call or email - I just was so overwhelmed with emotion and felt believe it or not I needed space. Well he called me 5 times... dont know what that means, I do know from my experience dont call or email let him contact you and do the effort. Its hard it hurts the first few days but if you are always calling and emailing he has the emotional power. I begged and called the first few days and he just shut off - then I stopped and he now reaches out to me - he makes the effort. I dont know if that helps or not.
I just want to give you a hug because I think I know exactly what you are feeling and going through - I am sorry
