Need Insight II

[InAPickle]

Well I think I did much better tonight.
Considering that I was dreading another bomb drop.
I held my tongue and my anger, though it was with great effort.

We went out shopping as the excuse for her to "talk".
Turns out she really wants to visit OM the weekend of 12/18.
Wants assurances that I wont throw her stuff in the driveway; wont expose her to kids, friends, family etc.
I just STFU mostly.

In her head I would be the bad guy for doing all that, and she's the victim for being forced to seek legal protection yada, yada.
In the end the only thing I promised was to not throw her stuff out.
She said she can't trust me - I almost responded but STFU instead - can you believe that? She can't trust me?? But as the eveneng wore on, I told he I didn't want to rush the D.

And Angel you'll be proud, When she said she thought I hated her I told her I was still in love with her. She said, "you're just hurting 'cause you don't want change." But I instantly responded that she cannot presume to know my feelings just as I don't presume to know hers. I said your feelings are yours and you believe what you believe, and I dont question that; it is what it is. And that silenced her.

On the drive back she hemmed and hawed about we are only going to remain together because we cannot afford to live apart, but I reminded her that I wanted it for the kids. Then she pressed on about reaching an agreement and I asked do you want an open arrangement? She said, "I don't know," several times right after saying she wants to see OM and "it's not like I'll be going up there all the time." Then she said she's not going to live in a loveless marriage, and then I jumped right in.

I said I don't want that either, "I want a loving marriage; I don't want to go back to the way things were the last year or two." She started to retort, because she thinks the last five were miserable, but I cut her off and said, "I WANT IT TO BE BETTER!"

And that was pretty much the end of the conversation.

Your anlaysis please.