I think I've come to the conclusion that I am doing this all wrong!

In every area of my life I am happy and at peace, except with H.

I often feel hurt, frustrated and upset.

When I renew contact with him I also lose detachment. I start to have expectations and these expectations lead to further hurt and disillusionment.

There have been steps forward but too many back. H sees only issues and problems.

If H was seriously interested in making contact he would.

I think it's time for me to let go.