For New Year's I reserved a room in a luxurios hotel in San Juan,fine dinning and entertainment [beautiful]. New Year's eve there having a ball [whatever] a formal party. They are having a concert with popular artists. I told my husband my plans, I didnt invite him, I dont want him to think that I'm needy. I want him to go more then anything. And as his wife the rejection would hurt too. I'm sure he has other plans anyways. He told me this weekend he is going to think about weather or not he is going to file. Those words haunt me. Although I gathered my strength, smiled and said "yeah thats alot to think about, but do what ever you gotta do." Normally I would have given him guilt trips and if that didnt work I would of cried and if that didnt work I would insult him and if if if if......got the idea. What a show. However he killed me all over again. A bat to my emotions. I do not want this.
