For the books, I wouldn't worry about her feeling that they are pursuit. The books are for you and not for her. If she ever asks, then tell her just that. They are for you and to help you in your relationships. Pursuit is when you buy the books and give them to her saying "here read these".
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
