Still needing some encouragement

[AntoniaB]

I just honed in on your comment about getting your "fix". I think this is one of the hardest things for me to break with my H and I'm all but broken but I see it come back from time to time. Many of my friends, family have said I was addicted to him, and that even bad contact was still contact (like even a bad high was still a high). It has taken a long time for me to feel I am mostly over this addiction--and I guess for me I have broken the addiction by substituting with other things that make me happy--friends, family, hobbies, finding more joy in my job or day to day living. Because before, HE was entirely responsible for my happiness. That's why even when HE stopped making me happy, I clung to him and needed that "fix" of his attention on me, no matter if it was good or bad, it was still attention.

I think if you are still feeling that you need this fix, rest assured that with enough time and detachment, it will start to lessen. I'm not saying I have this "down" myself yet, but I'm less addicted to him by far now than before, and it's because I've found other things to fixate on. Good luck.