EGAD! So the talk never happened. It's is on the table for tonight. I guess I misread what she wanted to talk about. It's not a BIG relationship talk...more like a "talk to take stock of where we are." I hope it will be positive. I'm trying to be.
We had our Daycare's holiday party last night. We took a nice family photo in front of the tree. She suggested this. Actually, the photo turned out really well and she put her arm around my waist for the photo. Then I left to take our youngest home and she stayed with our oldest. Before I left she gave me a nice kiss...more than a peck on the lips. I was kinda stunned. I'm not going to read into it, but just enjoy it. Of course this could've been for show. Anywho. Baby Steps, baby steps.
Every day, I try to write down 2 or 3 positive things that W did with/for me today even if their small. I think I need to keep the idea that she cares for me and is a good person.
Also, today I did something new. Normally we all leave the house together as a family with one of use taking the kids to DC and the other going to work. We usually wait until everyone is ready (mostly its my W because she is chronically late). But this morning, while she was drying her hair I packed up the kids and their stuff. I told her we were leaving and left. it served 2 purposes. 1 I'm tired of waiting for her and 2) it prevented me from starting a fight with her this am.
We'll see.
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
