First, It has been a long time since my last update.
Basically I spent 3 months trying to save my marriage to ind that while I did everything I could, it wasn't enough.
My soon to be Ex wife has left (weekend before Thanksgiving) and is now living with the woman she has been cheating on me with. It hurts. Even knowing that this was the likely outcome, it still hit me hard. I do have to say it feels better to not be in the limbo land that I have been in for the last 3 months.
The kids are with me in the house. So far we are being amicable about stuff. I hate what she has done to me and to my family, but the most important thing to me now is my kids especially my 6 year old daughter. I am letting STBXW come over just about every day to spend some time with her even tho it is hard for me emotionally.
I found out that I have been suffering from depression for some time now. So at a point in my life when I NEEDED her support the most, is when she decided to turn her back on me and the family. So much for better or worse.... I am taking meds for the depression that are helping and still going to therapy which also helps. So far the most important thing I have learned is that this IS NOT MY FAULT! Yes I was depressed, but I did not know it at the time. If I didn't know it, how could I have done anything to fix it?
Trying to figure out the best way to handle things from here to minimize the damage to the little one.
I am much better than I was. I still cry, but not as much. I have learned that I have a great many people who care about me, which has helped tremendously.
