Thank you Dbmod I was feeling hopeless and thinking that I might not want to be with someone who doesnt even want to try to fix our marriage and is so willing to walk away and be a part-time dad....I have made some positive changes as my coach said finding some outside interests. Joined a gym this week and weight watchers. I am destined to get this baby weight off 20 pounds to go for ME, I want to find myself. I still havent gotten the book yet bought it online so I am probably messing everything up. Dbmod - how is your relationship now with your H?