Am I Being Unfair ?

[misshim]

I'm back again for all of the great advice I received in 2009.

I have been divorced now since 8-1-2009. Fast and furious, he left in 11-2008, filed on me 2-2009, divorced 8-1-2009. Even through it all, I haven't given up on him. I still have my little farm, but no more cows. Too much work for me since I'm gone most of the day at work.

My xh did his end of the divorce pro-se, he had wanted me to help him with his paperwork because he didn't understand them.

I told him no but I'd look them over. He gave me everything, and is paying for daycare & school & all fees in association with our d4.

He just wanted out of our life fast. Well in Nov. 2010, he already is trying to modify the d-decree.

He told me that the decree from 09 is so unfair(but my lawyer did the papers the way he wanted. And that he can't have any kind of life with it the way it is now.

My L said to try to get a agreement together and then we wouldn't have to go back to court. My L would just file our agreement. I just have alittle hard feelings how can the H who left us and divorced us come back and say that the agreement is so unfair. He acts like a little child.

But he texts me how he wishes he was just 6 feet down in the ground so he would feel better. I answer him by saying, I'm sorry you are having a hard time with life but our D(almost 6 yrs old) and I need you here. XH winter depression is here and he looks awful, normally he will hide from me or he can't look at me. Why? I know the legal marriage is over but I still have feelings for him.

XH family has finally started talking to me again (mainly at church) but XBIL's told me that he's messed up but that my XH doesn't hate me at all, they even invited me over for thanksgiving. My XH had our d-6 but he refused to take our d6 to his brothers for the holiday. So my D6 and XH stayed at his parents (where he lives) alone. D6 told me they did nothing, daddy slept on the couch. How sad !

I'm not sure if XH is waking up and coming to his senses. I think somedays he might be, but then again hes still sneeky and lies alot.

He just wants us to have a notorized agreement between us and change the divorce agreement. And he had a fit when my L asked him for a copy of 2009 tax returns and a current pay stub. I think he's hiding something.

Any advice?