Beyond Depression..but still a losing battle?

[Lucky11too]

Big update… H finally texted me last night to ask about when S’s preschool’s Christmas show as. I let him know it was next Thursday. And that was it. Then, in the middle of the night, I get a text that says, “I wish you understood me”. I responded that I try but that he’s complex (the truth!). I asked him how he was doing and if he needed anything (esp b/c he just woke me up in the middle of the night!) He says no and then says good night followed by the ominous words “take care of my son”. I immediately become fully awake and starting to freak out…those are complete suicidal threat words! I know that is a big concern with the medication he is on, so I start calling him, but he won’t pick up my calls. I text him telling him to pick up my calls and then call me, but he finally responds “no. I’m in a bad place right now [emotionally] and I will not speak.” Okay then. So thru texts, I let him know that I’m here for him, which provokes the response of “well where were you these last few days then”. I let him know that I was giving him his space b/c he seemed upset at me and that I was always there and always will be there for him”. (I have no idea how to handle a suicidal person, but I was trying my best). He finally says don’t worry about him (yeah, right!) and just to go to bed. The only way I could leave it was to say that S and I love him and need him in our lives.

I’m praying it was a cry for help and that he made it thru the night, but honestly, I don’t know at this point. I don’t believe he would follow thru with it, but you have to take every threat seriously. There wasn’t much else I could do last night except give him words of support thru texts since he wouldn’t answer my calls and I couldn’t go to him b/c I still don’t know where he lives. I’m thinking about calling his dr just to let him know what happened last night, but this is all new to me, so I really don’t know how it all works. Scary tho. I hope he’s ok. =/