2011 could be the "single" year. Gosh I haven't been single in about a decade. That is CRAZY. You know what's nuts? I always loved being single and thought it was SO weird to be in a couple and then I was in a couple and loved it and it's all I've known the past few years.
HG invited me out for next week. And wanted to hang tonight but I have an exam. He wanted me to invite my niece/nephew for the acitivity and then said that it would be better adults-only (his sis and her fiance) so that went away. Which is good. I'm not ready for him to meet them. Is that weird? I mean I could introduce him as my friend (who I sometimes kiss) but I was thinking, is it odd I feel that way since I've met practically his entire family? Idk.
STBX also called me last night. Spoke for a long time. He loves me so much, he will never love anyone the way he loves me, he swears this on his life, that he's not happy at home. I asked "What can be done to change that?" and he replies, Nothing, really. Okay. And he finally told me he sometimes feels bad because he doesn't feel he did/has done anything/everything he could/can to try to save our M and taht is something he will have to live with for the rest of his life.
And then he said D is the best thing cause we've hurt eachother too much.
Okaay. I swear he is bi-polar. What the f-ckity f-ck. Pardon my french, DBers but that man makes no damn sense.
He also wanted me to come over cause he wanted to have sex nad atlked about it.
Ha ha ha.
Yeah right. He also thinks I am sleeping with HG. I told him I'm not. He doesn't believe me. Says he wonders how I could just "move on." Once again I reminded him he is the one who filed divorce and told him I have understood now that he cannot give me waht I need ...
I really do hope he finds his happiness one day. Cause he is all over the place. It's so strange.
