Need Insight II

[InAPickle]

Well last night before bed I came right out and asked, "I don't understand why you feel you have to sleep out here on the couch".

Her response, "Because you hate me."

I said, "I understand how you feel that way, but it's the furthest thing from the truth. I really wish you'd come back to the bed, but do what you have to."

Then I went to bed. She remained up to finish grading some papers.

Now I think I understand the forlorn look when retrieving her pillow from the bedroom before retiring to the couch the other night.

This morning, I made her coffee, and she seemed more "relaxed" in my presence. On the way out the to car she touched my arm and I squeezed her hand, with no perceptible negative vibe. (not sure though)

I guess she thinks "I hate her" because of the anger I have shown.

With her guilt, she probably thinks, because I was so angry that she wants to dismantle the family and ruin all our lives, I must hate her. She cannot see, that I am still in love, and that I suppose will take much time.

The only thing I hate is this year from hell.