Help save my WAW

[habitacker]

I am the last person who should give any advice but your last post is exactly how I feel. I have been fighting it for 3 months now. I have found the answers,the books,the videos,all kinds of information and when I see my marriage problems and the solutions to those problems, I get excited because I can fix everything. The first thing I want to do is run to my wife and show her. It would be easy to fix if she would just try.
Now, here is my point. My wife never actually said the word divorce, but i knew it was there. For 2 months I did everything I thought was right. Things felt good. I thought everything would be alright. I decided to write her a letter about everything I have learned about myself and also gave her some info. Info about WAW,why you should not divorce, communication problems,etc. Well, guess what? All I heard was I WANT A DIVORCE. Remember, I had never actually heard those exact words. Now that she said them It might actually make divorce easier for her. For 3 weeks now those words, are words I did not want to hear. The only reason she said them to me was because I did what you want to do. I wasted 2 months of 180 because I couldn't shut up.
We both just need to store this info for the future, and hope that some day our wifes will let us use it. I know its hard. I almost fail everyday. Everytime I fell to temptation of trying something with her, my heart got broke,and things got worse.
"PATIENCE" This is something I have never had in any aspect of my life. UNTIL NOW!
You mentioned religion? Yep, I have ran to that also. I do not know if you want me to get in to that much,but it is helping. When you are in the situation we are in, the bible comes across like a self-help book. I have actually felt better with things like inspirational videos. Joyce Meyer is really good. I try to read the bible,but I have to think to much, and I am so tired of thinking. Trust me, I am not pushing religion. I actually just went there myself.
This is my first time other than on my own post. So if any experts out there think my opinions are wrong, please speak up. Just wanted to point out the things I did and my wifes reaction.