Now I'm in Melbourne and feeling slightly overwhelmed. Really I would like to fly home and snuggle on the sofa at Mum and Dad's under a duvet watching TV while Mum cooks me my favourite dinner with the Christmas lights on.
I don't feel in the mood for Christmas at all, it is so strange with the weather being warm and all that. Last year I didn't want Christmas but this year I am missing my family, for the first time ever I am feeling homesick.
But I know I must press on. I really need to find a job, the situation is quite desperate so I have been contacting temping agencies and tomorrow I will trawl the streets.
I have contacted the few people I know in Melbourne, they are all so random. My sister-in-laws cousin, a girl I used to sit next to in wind band at school, a guy I used to date at uni (in fact he contacted me), and a girl I met for two hours travelling last year who has always kept writing to me. All better than knowing no one as in Sydney.
There was the NZ train guy too, he told me to get in contact when I get to Melbourne. I am wondering whether to do that, he was very keen but would it be weird? He is in NZ at the moment on holiday so I wonder if I should wait. I'm not sure I like him in that way either. What do you guys think?
The other thing I am really pissed off about and clearly it should be the last thing on my mind is Joe. I emailed him weeks ago as he was all about keeping in touch etc etc and he has never replied. That really annoys me. Why do guys do that?? I know it shouldn't bother me but it really really does. Maybe that is why I am hesitant about emailing train guy. I don't need more rejection at the moment. I know boys should be the last thing on my focus at the moment but I guess it is because I am feeling lonely.
I know I have to give myself time here and patience but it is hard to keep starting over all the time. Sigh! I really need a helping hand from somewhere right now. I think I am doing all the right things and am in the right place. Now I just need things to happen...
