Went to my IC and have been trying to use my afternoon off to get a few things done.
I have a checking account now that H is not on. Still have a joint, but won’t be depositing my paycheck there anymore.
Left a message for my L to call me, just to be sure me not filing for D before H gets around to it won't negatively affect me or D3, again just in case.
Paperwork, paperwork, blah, blah, blah…
Still wrestling with OW/D3 issues. Think I need to get some rest tonight and let myself really sit with this, but I feel closer to knowing what I need to do.
I will say this, if the topic comes up in any way I won’t avoid it. I’m done trying to ‘save’ my marriage. That is not the same to me as wanting a divorce, but just letting go of the idea that I can save it. I can’t. All I can do is be open to the possibility of reconciliation. No more waiting though.
Like you said 25:
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If he changes dramatically AND wants back into the marriage, he'll let you know. Nothing less than total clarity & commitment from him is what you'd need to even think of reconciliation, so why even bother reading into any of his other behaviors? Life is short....so short. D3 will grow fast. Let her see you in a process of growth towards zestful living.
I will do my best, 25. Both for me, and for my sweet little girl.
