Hi DB, I 180's I chose were directly related to some of the things I had let go about by myself that were also the same things my H sited for wanting to divorce me. His exact words to me were: "Carmen, attractive." "Carmen, without a job, still attractive but kinda crossing over....." "Carmen, without a job, staying at home, not working out, on the computer, watching TV, talking on the phone...not attractive." "I'm not attracted to you any more."
I lost my job in August, I've been consumed with finding a job because of his issues with my finances, he wants all our household bills paid 50/50, I haven't been able to contribute with what I receive in Unemployment. So my 180's were; 1) Work out= I had not been working out & had gained 25 lbs since we got married in 2008. 2) Make friends= I moved to GA in 2008 right after we got married, I have not managed to make any close friends, I know exactly two people here in Atlanta. 3) Taking dog for walks= I stopped taking our dog for a walk since I've been out of work. 4) Get a job= got fired in August, after getting let go the previous Oct. Finances are a HUGE, HUGE issue for him. As he said to me "how can someone who is so smart, be so freaking stupid about money?"
Long story short, H does not want to work anything out, he just wants out, as he told me over & over again on D Day. Since that day, last Wednesday, I have not brought up a D, have not discussed our relationship, I have backed off from discussing anything seriously. I'm literally at my wit's end now, since I thought going out to meet new friends was what he wanted me to do since he was very clear about me finding friends. This is really confusing to me.
BTW, there is no OW just in case anyone was wondering.
M: 46 H: 39 Together 10 years, married almost 8 years No kids D day 11/23/15 GALing at this point