Beyond Depression..but still a losing battle?

[Lucky11too]

That's is the truth!!! I suppose it really it hard to miss something you don't even know exists...the joy, love, and bond with your child! So sad for them!

So, FIL couldn't pick up S from preschool on Monday, so they asked H (but let me know to be on backup since H is so unreliable). Of course, I get a call from H that he's running late and doesn't have time to pick up the carseat first from his parents house, so I meet H over at S's preschool (although since I was there, there was not point for H to be there now anyways). H was about to go head off to have food at his restaurant while I took S home, but since S was asking for him, I asked him to at least take it to go, so he could have lunch with S. He finally decides that he will go home and just find something at MIL's house to eat with S. We get there, and we have a bill there for interest/penalties for paying our taxes late. (long story - had to do an extension in Apr b/c of the business, but when went to file in October, found we still owed more taxes!) Then S was being difficult and hit MIL, in which I had to put him in time out b/c MIL won't and then I couldn't for the life of me get S to say sorry to MIL, even though he had no problem telling me (he has absolutely no respect for her - so sad. She think she's "loving" him by letting him get away with everything, but in reality, all she is doing is creating a monster for herself and someone who doesn't even respect her.) But anyways, H is sitting in the corner looking grouchy so I asked him what was wrong. He says "everything". I'm not sure exactly what set him off, but he's in a down again. For the taxes, I paid the one for the state and now I'm paying the one for the IRS, so he has nothing to be stressed out about that (although I am, since property taxes are due too next week on our house that we don't even live in and H doesn't pay a cent on...but don't even get me started on that!!!). And with S, was he mad with how I disciplined him? Even so, he's not around, so he has no say! So then S totally freaked out when I went to go back to work and was screaming for me, so I texted H a little bit later to ask if S had cheered up, but no response...and not one word from him since! Since he ignored me, I for sure wasn't going to keep "pushing" it, so I haven't bothered to text him again either. So now, last text received was Sunday night, when we usually have several texts daily. I don't like being ignored so I have no problem igoring him now. It's just weird though. Not sure what's happening with him and what set him off? What did I do?