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[Long_Way_To_Go]

Thanks for reminding me to present myself in a positive light. It is hard when you feel like your life is falling apart around you but I know it is important.

Sometimes I get frustrated with pretending to be OK. It feels like I am lying when I have to make it seem like everything is going just great for me. I wish I could just be honest. I should be able to tell him that I love him, want to be with him, he is important to me, our marriage is the most important thing to me, that his actions have hurt me and that I'm sad and lonely. But I won't, I'll put a smile on my face and not say any of the above.

Sorry, just had to vent and obviously can't do it with him