I was always monogamous so when H left I was really scared to have sex again. But I also wanted to - when the time was right. My hormones kept telling me the time was right but my brain told me to wait.
There were a couple of guys I would LOVE to have slept with but that little voice inside my head told me I wasn't ready yet. So I didn't. After some time I didn't regret that decision.
Josh and I waited a couple of months (which was painful for me) but when we finally did make love the first thing that I thought of was "YESSS!!!! I finally did it again!". LOL! - I was sure I was a born again virgin. I had gone several years without.
Was it the same as with H??? No not really. But it was tender and loving and I have a good memory of it. I guess - if you really think about it - isn't that what you'd like your "first time - second time around" to be???
No regrets for me but maybe if I'd have gone with the hormones - I might have regretted it.
