In counseling i learned a possibly had a sex addiction and am currently taking medication. It has helped and other women are not a problem.
i just thought it was better than ever cause she hugged me and said i love you without being provoked to. Guess my controlling behavior finally got the best of me and she said she is so tired of trying with me.
i feel she hasn't been able to love me cause of the other women and the jealous behavior and there is a trust issue. She doesn't feel she ever loved me cause the first affair was early in our marriage so she doesn't feel that she can love me. She say i am the one that cheated and that she has been faithful for our entire relationship and she doesn't deserve this.
I feel i can really change to the person she wants. Im still in counselling and on a different medication to control my impulse thinking. i love her with all my heart and want to grow old with her. i just panic sometimes cause she gives no hope for us and says she would be crazy to take me back because i make her so miserable. I wanna show her i can make her happy but i dont feel i can do it with us living apart.
