This mornings calm conversation reveals that she says she is numb as far as her feelings go. She still feels the need to move to her own place. I reminded her how much I love her how much she means to me and the family as a whole. She did not get upset. I said I could get over and through this and forgive her. Her response was that she is not sure if she could. She still has not directly asked for the seperation or D. I essentially said if u need your time and space I can't change that. I said things don't have to be final yet she really did not respond. That's the nutshell. We, well she went on about some marriage things that upset her. I actively listened, did not argue. Most of them I cannot change because it is what our life evolved into a change in roles due to employment changes. But she always said it did not bother her, turns out it does. I am not exagerating here so on face value and her not getting mad how is all that. It is paraphrased. My one mistake before that conversation was mentioning I wanted to go out tonight asking if she still had something. She did and asked where I wanted to go I said nevermind she perceived that as me keeping secrets. Made her not happy. I explained she angrily explained all the details of how and why it made her mad.

I suppose if it doesn't kill me it will makee me stronger.


H 37
WW 37
M 15
5 Children
Bomb 9-27-10
W EA/Pa
she filed 12-18-10