In the process

[newmama]

Don't have much to report...checked out another daycare with exH on Monday and it seems really good! I did say "when S is with his dad, he will come earlier in the day..." letting the director know we are divorced. This was relevant to the conversation. I said it in front of exH when we were talking about when breakfast was served and hours of operation.

At one point, exH was letting S walk around and just asking him to come here, etc. and I am thinking "duh- he won't listen to you! He's 16 months old!" but I was polite and let him do his thing. S wasn't in harm, it was just annoying to waste the director's time waiting for S to listen while she is showing us around. I did say to the director at one point 'his dad let's him walk around a lot more than I do so I am not used to it!'
OOPS! It slipped out and I realized that is a way of dissing exH so honestly, I shouldn't say that stuff. Seriously, no kidding around.

Still, there were weird times where we had to be united as parents and it felt like being a couple but yet we are divorced. I know this is the reality but the overlap was odd. I didn't feel sad, just observed it.ExH had to get my attention to tell me something and just grabbed my arm instead of using my name... in fact, even now, ExH and I don't call each other by our names. We just talk without saying a name first. I think it's because we always called each other Honey or Sweetie instead of our names.

Afterward, we both said that we liked the place and were impressed. ExH said we should look at the other place soon and he would let me know when he could do it (he picks up S and meets me at these places).

Then, he buckled S into his carseat in my car and said "oh,you got a mess back here, S" (yeah, that would be MY mess...) but I just ignored it because I AM FREE TO HAVE A MESSY CAR IF I WANT! He divorced me! (mess= toys on the floor, some wrappers from cereal bars, some cheerios, an extra jacket, a few baby wipes from cleaning his face...oops!! I clean it up on the weekends...most of the time)

On a different subject, I got a tip from a colleague about getting these mini hooks that I can put on the gutter to hang the Christmas lights! I really feel motivated to look at one store to see if they have them, then try to move the ladder in the garage to the upper shelf to get the lights...but I am nervous about lifting the heavy box on the ladder--I am not trying to sound helpless, just being honest!

Somehow, I need to get a picture of S for our Christmas announcements, I think, and send them out within the next week. If I decorate the house next weekend while he is with exH, I might be able to do it. Last year, exH took the photos while I propped S up on the sly. But you know what? If I can't do it, then I won't worry about! It sounds like exH will be doing one and he can send it to his family. Mine will see S on Christmas, so who cares about a Season's Greeting pic, right? I will try but am not going to beat myself up if I can't get the right opportunity.