Okay now. It's only been a couple days. There were some good things but also 2 fights (100% my fault). My therapist said last week that it is okay to be mad sometimes. I took this too much to heart. My main issue with W is her possible EA. She has limited contact but not cut off. But I am to the point where im so po'ed at her about it it comes out in other ways. Not good. So today we agreed that we were going to tackle that issue 2nite. Later I realized I wasn't ready. Before bed, she asked me if I wanted to talk 4 a few. It was just light chit chat…maybe 5 mins. I left. Then like an idiot I went back and asked If there was something she wanted to talk about. She turned the question on me. I said I want to talk about this guy and where we stand, but I dont think now is the time. As in this stage of the fallout. She then says we can have a BIG talk on thursday about everything. It seemed she wants to make a decision. She added "I hate being in limbo"
Now I don't know what to do. Obviously, I'd love to hear she has decided to commit to the M as we work on things. However, it could also be she wants the D sooner rather than later. Time is one thing I have working 4 me. Clearly, if she doesn't bring it up. Im not going to. She tends to forget when we agree to talk. But if she doesnt, I dont know if I am prepared for the negative. Especially since things seemed to be improving.
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Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
