I successfully relaxed before I got there and let go of trying to make H happy. I survived dinner, and even feel pretty good about it.
I got to see my girl. She did great btw. D was amazed by the cooking display and we all had a good time. She was sleepy, apparently had fallen asleep briefly on the way over. She did ask to go home with me a few times, but I went over the schedule with her and she did ok. My girl did NOT cry when we went to our separate cars.
H is coming on Sunday to put up the tree with us. I told him he was welcome to join us with putting up the tree this weekend. He said he didn’t think I would want him around. I told him we would love it if he came, but knew he didn’t like the holidays and didn’t want to force him to do anything he didn’t want to.
He said he could be over from 12-3 and would like to help.
He also wants to go shopping with us at some point. Got a gift card offer and asked if there was anything he needed. Not really sure if I invited him or the other way around. The day isn’t set though, so its only a maybe.
There were some good things that came out of tonight. Nothing to get excited about, but good. I’m not expecting anything either. Just want to do what I can for me and my girl. H is his own problem. Hope he gets himself figured out someday.
The trick with seeing H more again will be not to pursue. Still want distance, so I guess if I don’t feel like I want to chase maybe I will do ok.
