Hi G, sorry took so long to write back. So are you still in the D process?? So sorry to hear...
H and I started MC. He is still not home. Some days i prefer it, most days i wish he'd come back . Said he wants to move home but wantsto wait until he knows we will not fall into a rut like we used to be. Whatevs (so funny, i say that all the time now). I think he is scared or has doubts to be honest. Anyway... too busy with the baby to be worried about H. I tell him all of the time, he should kiss my A$$ to be back in my life. sorry, it's how i feel! sometimes i think he gets it and sometimes i think he is cluless. Also, i think H maybe goin through a bit of depression. Says he is really upset because our lives were not supposed to be this way, and had he stayed or done things differently perhaps life would be better.
He happens to be a great dad... just a crappy H who left his pregnant wife. Everytime i write that I stil can't believe this is my life. Anyway, I feel strong enough now to know that if H cant fight for me and MC cant fix us, or help us grow togetehr, then I will be okay alone. There is always a piece of me that is extremely cautious and thinks "just in case he isnt here for the long run". maybe i should be more positive, but really... after my year... i can think how i want... right??
I dont know about you, and Piano too, but do you feel like 2010 is so darn ironic... the worst year, but also the best year, because of the baby?? I do...
. Said he wants to move home but wantsto wait until he knows we will not fall into a rut like we used to be. Whatevs (so funny, i say that all the time now). I think he is scared or has doubts to be honest. Anyway... too busy with the baby to be worried about H. I tell him all of the time, he should kiss my A$$ to be back in my life. sorry, it's how i feel! sometimes i think he gets it and sometimes i think he is cluless. Also, i think H maybe goin through a bit of depression. Says he is really upset because our lives were not supposed to be this way, and had he stayed or done things differently perhaps life would be better. 