Trying to catch up and I just want to send you a huge hug!!! Remember you are strong, and beautiful, and so smart, and deserves someone who loves you and never loses sight of how great yu are!!!
Originally Posted By: newmama
I was crying about remembering the pain of those months when I wasn't aware of the affair but just was being rejected by exH and was in so much pain. No "I love you," no affection, no sex, the distance in his interactions with me, and I was pregnant on top of it all.
But the absence of rejection was a relief. WHen I went NC with him after kicking him out, it was hard for 3 days and then I felt relief. So I was crying because I think subconsciously I remembered the drive back from my mom's house when I was pregnant and how much pain I was in by the way exH was treating me and how deeply hurt and scared and HELPLESS I felt and had no idea how to get him to snap out of it and had no idea why he was acting the way he was.
I Read this and choked up... I know the feeling... and remembering the pain is so hard...
