Interestingly, I just checked my bank account and guess who decided to deposit money this month? According to him, he was going to deposit 500 last month (down from the 1000 he originally planned) less because of the L he needed to hire... clearly blaming me for this as the internet was good enough for him.
Then, nothing. No money. Suspect he was trying to get me to react/punish me for getting a L without telling him (see prior posts!).
Today, 500. Guilt? For sure. Still trying to see if I am hanging around? Maybe. Whether I will take the opportunity to contact him and thank him? Not a chance. I know, I know, stop the mind reading. Seriously though, is anyone ever successful at that!!! Despite my feeling that the real answer is 'no' since I am pretty sure everyone on here is human... I will continue to try to refrain.
Supporting me/his family is VERY important to him. His father supports his entire family including H's aunts, uncles. This is H's role model and what he strives for (not a spoken goal but clearly important to him). Part of me wants to not take the money. I feel like he is trying to control me to a degree, trying to make me dependent on him. It is his pattern. He has told me he knows I don't care about the money but it is important to him. I hate that he gets to still try to be the 'good guy' by giving me money. I think no reaction is the only way and forget whatever his motives may be... thanking him would seem like pursuing to me, even though I hate to look thankless (I looked that way in the R in his eyes I am certain). Ugh. Whatever, IDK.
(Formerly blgp) Me-35 H-33 Married 4 yrs Together 9 yrs "Bomb" 8/1/10 Separated 8/6/10 D filed 10/21/10, on hold til 1/11
"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him about your life plans."
